ON a different note, i don't really know why i havent been in the best moods lately.. maybe because i have a lot going through my head constantly and these things are just bringing down my mood... during the YLA camp, i had fun but then besides 'fun', the rest of my emotions were kinda screwed up.. even now and i just can't seem to sort it out...oh well, that aside... today i felt my day was going great at first when class started and all but when it got to lunch time, i was in a bad mood thanks so someone!!! shan knows what i mean... thanks for being there for me girl. this someone cant get the hint... during the poly experience, when ushering the kids into the CC, i met you for the first time and i mean just be friendly so we talked but you've gone too far with whatever you're thinking.. i'm really trying to be nice here and let you know that i kinda wanna be alone. i mean we can talk and all but.... seriously... you've been scaring me time and time again ever since poly experience ended. whenever i happen to pass by each other, which seems to happen quite abit though our blocks are really pretty far and today was really not a good day. this has got to stop!! i really don't wanna be rude or anything so please... back off please.. i'm really really scared.. you have no clue!!
its getting harder and harder to hold them... i guess i'm started to drain myself... i remember reading my friend's blog and it said that he should learn to take his own advice and i think i should do the same but i guess its easier to advice others than to actually use that advice for ourselves. even though i wanna take my own advice, its kinda hard cause i know myself best and its just really complicated, though i know its not a good excuse but its just really hard to explain it. and then another 'you' has been in my life for so long so why do you drive me crazy??!!

its just all going downhill at this point